Oh Dear...

I want but I can’t. I have to obey the worldly system.

There are things I can’t control. At times I fell so helpless, unable to move, there’s nothing I can do.

I need to convince myself over and over again.

Sometimes I forgot. I get too excited, envious, overly in love.

But I need to wake up.  I can’t control the universe.

There’s only one thing I can do.

Wait.

Without expectations and hopes, or at least, less.